santa ana wind

am outgrageous sick of a cold and brain in a fog. the wind is up even though here we do not have santa ana's but that's what i'm calling it. i am home for the morning, no agility today because i cannot breathe. last night i tried to do agility with my new short glamour hair and a cold and it didn't work well and i went home. i know because of the cold but some people probably thought because of the hair issues. the cute flippy bangs, didn't think. oh well.

why did i report this news to lisa? this was the news i thought of at the moment.

We are all pretty good except i am sick right now so am postponing going to work as late as I can. The other dog is Ruby, she is the agility champ! otterpop maybe will be an agility champ someday, she is fast but man is she a little hyperactive brat of a dog. timmy is good! he is always good, he is almost 14 years old!

What have I been doing. I have been desperately trying to buy a ranch in Santa Cruz county. Really hard, we get outbid or discover horrible flaws on each piece of property. Have been at it for almost 2 years. we found our DREAM PLace this summer and another bid came in at last minute $200,000 over the price so we did not get it. So this pretty much sucks but we don't want to move to Oregon or somewhere like that. We did have a field trip to Joshua Tree/Yucca Valley but Gary finally vetoed that idea which I really liked because we could buy a ranch with cash there.

Our beautiful perfect barn was sold 1.5 years ago and I am working out of a crappy barn I hate but it's the best I can do without owning one. This is a long and complicated story. But I am really into having a lesson program and my horses and doing some training but no more fancy horse show crap. But with nice horses and teaching people to ride to fancy horse show ability. I am keeping it hanging on w loyal customers even at the barn I hate and just hoping to make it thru another winter til I can buy a ranch I love and Gary loves.

And i teach dog agility one night a week and am super in to that still. it is something i can aspire to being better at.

I guess i may be an artist too, of real estate flyers and posters! but they are not for art world here they are all right here on my table, i am just not really interested in art world at all, a lot of people i know now that are succesfful artists hate it too, i think that happens to people. i really love teaching horse and dog stuff, that is what i want to do and art projects i can keep here. i may soon have enough posters for a book, i think i may be making a graphic novel but it will only live at my house! i try to keep am's free if possible no more graphic designing unless am super huge pestered and need some more $ so i can make more posters and have nicer ranch. i use printouts and pens and goache paint for the posters. they are probably not good art but that is ok i am not in the art world!

gary is good, he wants a ranch too very much but must be near the mt biking. he is about the same. mt biking and cd's. he does not buy into my whole ipod world, he loves cds.

laia is a senior in college. she will graduate, sociology and french major. now she wants to go live in paris and teach for a year, go to grad school and become a preschool teacher.

jacob just started san jose state after many, many years at cabrillo. he wants to be a lawyer and is also a domino's pizza delivery guy.

i know an ok airedale but it would not be my first choice dog. attached is photo of batman who i really want but gary begs and pleads no more dogs no more dogs. he is 7 years old and weighs 4 lbs and is a kind and gentle soul and is in the hospital now for a crushed pelvis. when i have a ranch i can have soooo many dogs! also i would like a llama for lawn ornament. and many deer antlers on a roof. it is all planned if we can just goddamn buy it.

i am surprised squeak remembers me, hey wait of course she does she stole some idea i had!

pretty much i am obsessed with ranch buying. maybe i should clarify, a nice flat and sunny field of over 2.5 acres with a house that is not too crappy on it with neighbors that do not hate horses and a driveway that is not steep up a mountain side. that is all i ask. for under 1 million dollars of money. probably we could buy 8 ranches in st louis for this much but you know, we just really like CA.

do you watch deadwood? i love deadwood to watch anytime anywhere. and project runway.

recent idea is to eat macrobiotic food because somewhere our diet turned into gary's food loves and all we eat is pizza and fries i think now and i feel crappy and sick and now i want to just start eating raw vegetables only.

funky chicken

so here's the thing. i just stop. i feel like, this is so dumb. no one reads this. it's like what i hear in my head when i am trying to refrain from sounding like a weird stirrup panted dog mom talking to small dogs. but then if i don't, it's not here. so here, it's back.

really it's been a quiet october. weather's been good. dogs have been about the same. no houses to look at on the market. doing some work. got glasses so i can read better.

just this morning i acted like a weird bad jeaned dog lady at the park. the dogs were just shit heads. they were irrirating. i was irritated. i felt fat. i felt cranky. they were sniffing the air and not listening. i dropped a leash and had to go find it.

but i catch myself talking to them in ways i hear other middle aged ladies talking to their dogs. and i am wearing running shoes! and i say to them, in completely public places, where other people can overhear, albeit people with dogs, things like, "come on you guys. we're going to be late. timmy put that down, ruby let's go. pop get out of that." but it's like a conplete conversation. it sounds weird and loony and like i never talk to actual humans.

we love Big Love on tv. we rent it. I loved marie antoinette. the costumes were stunning and the dialog was just like paris hilton channeling little thoughts into kirsten dunst's mouth. i saw amy sedaris last night, she made a craft. we have the same middle name, somehow i ended up sitting practically in her lap and we chit chatted briefly over that. she isn't at all fat and is teensy actually and very cute.

people, are you reading this? do you know how obsessed i can be over these bad 10 lbs that have settled on my hips, the fact that otterpop barks at judges and that i don't live on a ranch? what kind of life is that. oprah would kick me in the ass if she knew me. i have a large lack of gratitude for what i have most of the time and am absorbed in weird things. luckily i am doing pen drawings again!

leathery skin

i was in elk grove on sunday, i left at 4:30 am to get there! for a fun dog show. actually it was fun. the dog part. the dogs were really good and ruby won every single class and was very fast. it is easy to be a big winner in elk grove where most of the ladies smoke and wear very large windbreakers. they have leathery skin too. and tightly permed little tiny gray hair curls.i think this is sort of a ranch look. even otterpop won all of her classes except the one she had a freakout episode in and started barking at the judge. she had leathery skin too!

i believe elk grove is famous for it's high volume of cows. and tires holding down giant piles of cow manure. these are different types of ranches than what i was hoping to purchase.

hey just keep remembering T is for Texas and Timmy!

there are no good ranches for sale this week. what a surprise! luckily it is raining so we can have a leaky roof again!

i bought some boots on ebay! now i just need my big truck. also i downloaded all the lorettta lynn songs i could find on itunes. and watched all of lonesome dove the other night. these are my new hobbies.