18 March 2019

Santa Rosa March USDAA

Steeplechase! Always Banksy's favorite.

Gooey ran Steeplechase too! Drive-by weave poles, drive-by broad jump, drive-by second to the last jump. Amazing fast running and one thousand percent enthusiasm, when he found out he was having a turn, holy smokes did he turn on the fire and run to that ring. Gooey was the happiest Gooey, and I am going to try and get him more turns sometimes. Drive-bys are perfectly fine if that's what he wants to do.

Also many things in gamblers for Banksy with a very beautiful stopped teeter totter in the gamble! Also a Grand Prix run with some miscommunications, at the second wide turn I decided to fix-and-go to declare moratorium on the wide turn. I almost didn't run this, the dirt felt hard and rocky. I had visions of Banksy landing on a rock, and I was hearing a thud each time she landed off a jump, paranoia isn't a good way to run. So instead of staying for the rest of the day, we drove the pretty way home and stopped at the beach halfway there.

Otterpop hated the beach. The pretty way home is the long way home, extra long because the whole Bay Area decided to head over to the mountain in the sun to the beach. So many cars slowly following each other over the mountain, so may cars at the beach. Like Christmas parking at the mall.

Otterpop can never go off her leash ever, especially at the beach, she has crazy dementia and zero hearing and while sometimes she follows along, other times she looks at the air and bolts in unpredictable directions. So she tottered along the beach a bit, blinking in the sun, sometimes I carried her.

Otterpop sometimes has a happy life, a lot of times she doesn't. She wakes up in the middle of the night and wants to run around the living room at top speeds bashing into things. She hates stairs and flings herself off furniture. She hates most walks and when she hates a walk she tries to bolt and flings herself against the leash. She doesn't take many walks now, but she hates being left alone. She hates riding in the orange dog car. She hates trying to walk on days her back legs don't work right. She hates food in puzzle toys. She hates sleeping at night. She hated walking around the park grounds where the dog show was. She hates a lot of things.

She does like sleeping on the couch with me sitting next to her! And eating food in a bowl sitting in a dog bed. And going to our regular park when the sun isn't bright or when it's not raining. I think that's it. So we try to do those things as much as we can.

06 March 2019

Things I learned via Sweden.

We have a new friend from Sweden hanging out in town right now, she gave me a lesson the other day. Some more international learnings for us!

The first thing she asked me was why does Banksy not like tunnels and sometimes run slow? These questions made my eyes but out with wonder as I think of Banksy as loving tunnels so much that I've been working for two years to teach her to not always take them, and I thought that she runs very fast! Just not as fast as four other dogs we compete against.

I told her that. She just looked at me and said, "Hmm. She doesn't seem that fast."

Game on.

Some things we learned:

Banksy does not like spins. Me either.

Try to get the blind.

Drive in to the tunnel a bit more. Ha HA! Who woulda thunk this?

Leave earlier and run faster. Make sure Banksy runs faster, so that she runs faster than those four other dogs.

I can in-in-in the other way if I tap-tap-tap it.

Try to get the blind.

Throw the toy, not so much come to hand. Whereas via Slovenia, so much, SO MUCH working on come to hand not throwing the toy. Apparently it worked, see the running faster issue.

Try to get the blind.

Push-push-push should have straight facing shoulders not turning ones.

Try to get the blind.

03 March 2019

Morgan Hill SMART USDAA in March

Banksy back in her natural habitat after a long weekend of a trial. What a relief to go run around in the swamp!

There was a lot of mud this weekend, which made her happy. Luckily we ran in a giant covered arena since we have become a land of rain and rain and more rain. A lot of car sitting and patience, but a lot of really fun runs. Otterpop came with her, Gooey stayed home and slept in.

Some of the highlights were her Grand Prix and Biathlon wins. Actually my other favorite highlight had an off course tunnel, but it was one of my favorite runs. Steeplechase had a long, long line from jump to straight tunnel to jump to another tunnel but not the fun side the other side. Banksy had that look in her eye that no in-in-in would pull off and I had to restart and go. We had no time because of the E, but had we, it would have been FAST! Only 2 bars for the whole weekend!

She missed one dogwalk hit all weekend, my undoing as I was so far ahead I pulled her off early on a turn. The rest, no problem and there were a couple of hard exits. One amazing table, one table that I just left her there to work out for herself how to settle down and not topple off. 25 seconds worth of leaving her there for a standard run with 2 seconds of time faults! The rest of it was lovely, though, and I think it's good for her to have to hang out there and figure out how to settle herself into a nice down stay while I lead out as far as I can and she has to deal with. That's our only tough love these days with stays. Every run I start right now with a Whoopsiedoodle, I believe they're called, instead of leading out. We both like them and they work just fine.

She picked up a whole rack of Qs, not sure what to do with those but she gets them. She won other things too, I think some jumpers and perhaps a gamblers and a snooker. Our other favorite run was a gamblers opening that I designed just to make her happy with huge open loops and dog walks and frames and tunnels. That was her treat for being so good with the hard dog walk exit in the stupid table standard.

I didn't video. I should video. Some day I am going to wish I had video of these runs. Thanks Banks, for being such a good girl!

24 February 2019


There are times when I feel a little bit lost in life, and I need to detective sniff out that thing that’s going to let me be more than who I am. It’s gone missing, and isn’t that kind of tricky to go on a search for a thing that you don’t even know what it is? And then instead of searching I just want to get on the couch and hide under the warmest blankets with the smallest dogs. Could I get one of those surveillance internet speak robots with a girl’s name and set it up by my couch and yell at it from under the blanket to find this missing elusive thing?

“Alexa, play some David Bowie, stop global warming and homelessness and fix my agility too while you’re at it?”

Except those robot surveillance things, do we even want those to know what we need? They might deliver it from Amazon really fast and play a movie on Netflix, but wow. Just makes me burrow even deeper under my duvet.

In agility, the elusive finding is sometimes sought out in seminars. A new lift to the saggy bits, a bolder way to wave an arm, kind of like the promise of ordering a custom made leash with your dog’s name emblazoned the collar. Hope stems from the new and shiny. I resisted the seminar pull with Banksy for a long time, but not the fancy new leashes. We were chugging along on our steam from my methodical training, didn’t want to muck it up because I got confused by a new direction. Couldn’t find the time, didn’t want to shell out the extra money, didn’t want to look dumb. Seminars could be calling out a lot of holes. I resisted. Not just the call of the seminar, but instead of courting minimalism and sparking the joy of tidying up, I kept adding on colorful dog leashes to the dog hooks out back.

Eventually, my inner hoarder realized that way too many leashes that didn’t spark any joy other than potential fire hazard of too much stuff. So much for shiny and new. If not fleece, then about those seminars? This was how I came to sign up Banksy for her very first seminar with two distinguished stateswomen of agility. They arrived from Canada in warm hats and mittens, use a handling style that’s similar to how I do, and had seemingly endless patience with my mistakes.

Seminar day was a lot like being in our agility class, taking turns with my friends running hard on big international style lines. I made a lot of handling errors and Banksy and I both had very tired legs at the end of two days. It was definitely fun and we did get called out on some things that I know are things. So many tunnels, and so many tunnels to run by and not take. Who doesn’t want to learn a magic quick fix to all our dog woes, in a quick 3.5 hour block, for $180? A chance to fling that $40 leash down into the dirt over and over again.

For an agility instructor, seminars aren’t a bad way to keep paying the bills to keep doing the agility. For this, they endure lengthy airplane rides with complicated schedules, unknown freeways, overnight storage in hotel rooms, all day talking to people expecting tidbits of true wisdom. The seminarian carries the weight of knowing there is a room full of eager learners out there, who are counting on them to help. Not make it worse. Not do nothing. Help them, hopefully in that life changing unicorn magic perfect way. A burden to carry, knowing what’s expected.

I'm not an official seminarian, but I’ve recently played one now three times. The third held recently in the far off land of Ohio. When I was initially invited, I assumed it was a mistake, she got the wrong Laura, there are quite a few of us in my part of the country, the others all more highly skilled than I. She pressed on. I didn’t need to be a medal winning superstar. Didn’t need to be a famous coach or a world team member. The audience would be handlers trying to help their dogs gain more confidence, she thought I was exactly the person for the job. I asked if it snowed there, she said yes. I thought how marvelous, to go to a far off land of ice and snow to teach, and, holy grail of agility grails, to make some actual money for doing this.

And so how I ended up heading to our nation's fair state of Ohio during polar vortex month.

Days before leaving, I began to understand the reality of the snow thing. My agility students fixed this by bringing a selection of long underwear to class. I arrived two hours early to our balmy California airport rolled up in long underwear, three shirts, a sweatshirt, a sweater, a down vest, a warm jacket, plus heavy rain coat. And a scarf. And a hat. And mittens. Maybe you always wear this, you people in midwestern locales where below zero is just an everyday thing. For me, completely uncharted waters. I sweated in the airport sea of well groomed short haired guys in fleece vests with embroidered technology logos, all of us jockeying for wall socket space to plug in our devices. Me, the bulkiest business traveler of all, feeling smug that their roller bags probably weren’t crammed full of dog toys like mine was. We’re all on business trip, but my business is helping dogs feel happy, take that, Computer Guy. The one I’m squeezed next to on the plane glances at me and immediately puts his noise cancelling Bose earphones for the duration of our flight, probably quickly identifying the “Let me tell you about happy dogs” look on my face.

It’s strangely relaxing, traveling minus a dog. I read my book on the plane instead of worrying about my dog asphyxiating under the seat. I only needed to find a place for me to potty, muddy feet were irrelevant so I stayed in a really nice hotel with all white bedding and non contaminated rugs. I did have momentary panic attacks all weekend that I’d left a dog somewhere, but the lovely dog trainer who shuttled me around Ohio continually assured me that I arrived dogless. I felt very at home in her van, crammed full of crates and weave poles and leashes and jackets and dogs. She was always on time and knows exactly where the sandwiches were easily located, and bought me choices in fruits to enjoy and my fizzies. It was like being treated like a queen, which made me even more worried that when the seminar actually started I’ll be exposed for having no idea what I’m doing and off with my head.

All the agility in Ohio happens indoors, my headquarters for the weekend was a massive, windowless warehouse on the edge of town, conveniently located to all kinds of coffee. There was heat blasting inside, and snow falling outside. The students filed in first thing in the morning, they all looked pretty much like the agility people from California. Phew.

We went around the room. The aussie, he shuts down. The scruffy little dog hates start lines. The border collie gets the zoomies. The giant dog named Phoebe doesn’t like to break out of the trot and is overcoming her fear of tunnels.

I dumped out my dog toys on the floor, greatly relieved the airline didn’t lose my bag when it was whisked out of my hands on the overbooked connecting flight. The first handler to wave a toy in her scared dog’s face ended up on the floor with me, sprawled in a pile of squeakies, and found herself snuggling her dog on her lap. I start rambling on about Elton John. I look up to blank stares from the participants. These Californians, maybe they’re thinking, they do things differently out there. I tried not to panic.

“Does he like scritchies?” I ask. The little cattle dog flops onto his back for a tummy rub. Which might not look like agility, per se, but sure looks a lot better than the quaking and shaking dog who didn’t want to play with his toy.

Everyone complies to odd requests. I may be new to seminar teaching, but I know sad dogs when I see them and my mission in life is No Sad Dogs. Agility should be happy and if it’s made any dogs sad, it’s my duty to help the people unsad them. I think that snuggles and mousey games and cookies in tupperwares frequently help. Not always. Sometimes we get more creative. Squeakies in the tupperware. Flinging cookies around. Running across the room dragging all the toys tied into a knot.

I try to stay focused all weekend, but occasionally run outside to take moody still life photos of piles of snow in the parking lot and make snowballs.

“Snowballs! Who here needs a snowball?” This snow thing is amazing. There was a reason I borrowed that long underwear. I learned don't throw snowballs around indoors. The students aren’t impressed, the dogs just stop running and lick up their meltiness. Snow for them is like our sun. I guess if I was in a seminar and the teacher ran outdoors and grabbed a leaf and tried to get me to reward with it, I’d pass. So hits and misses, for sure.

I tried to memorize everyone’s names. I failed. I tried to remember if on your last turn your dog liked the fuzzy thing tied on to the furry thing. Oh yeah, she liked your treat tossing jig and your dog is a girl and I called her a boy. Double oops. I thought the lab was ready for the reward to be behind her instead of in front and she wasn’t and ran away. Oops again. But I did remember she was a girl and not a boy. I’m not a pro yet, I still mess up. The agility instructor there asks hard questions where I sometimes scratch my head and go, “Hmmm. I think actually, I don’t put it on cue. We just run fast and yell, GO GET THE COOKIES, is that like a cue?” and she doesn’t look impressed. I worry I don’t use enough dog training science words. I let the dogs jump up on my chest. I tell another lady to channel a yoga vibe. Blank stare.

People are on their phones and devices. I assume they’re bored out of their wits and texting all their friends about this about getting ripped off by an overdressed Californian agility teacher who keeps running out the door and making snowballs. She didn’t let them use the contact equipment hardly at all. She wants the dogs to snuggle. But it turns out they're taking notes. Of things I say! This is a good sign.

As the day went on, this is the kind of thing that started happening. The little black and white dog comes out and on each turn he’s grabbing the toy more. He started out on high alert, tail erect and paranoia eyes peering at every nook and cranny. By his last turn, he’s flying over the jump and through the tunnel and he’s running to a little squeaky ball. Actually, that’s his second to last turn. On his last turn, his person asks can she just bring him out and play with the squeakies, instead of running the sequence? End on a short and sweet note instead of over doing it for her sensitive dog? My heart goes pitter patter. Later she told me this is the first time he’s ever been able to play like that in front of other dogs and that normally he just trots around the agility, never galloping down the line like that or asking to engage with a game with her. He got a lot of scritchies from her and she always waited until he told her he was ready.

At the end of the day, one of the students comes up and asks, but do we HAVE to teach our dogs to jump on us? She has a massive young German Shepherd with feet the size of salad bowls. I try to sound like a Yoda Life Coach. Not everybody has to follow the same path, you and your dog are on your own journey. Also, I mention to her that all my dogs are small. Hers is the size of a pony. Maybe he can lay down instead.

I’ve been invited back, so it must have gone all right. I’ll venture to Ohio again some day, maybe some day someone would invite me to a whole other state. Maybe one with mosquitoes or alligators or open carry gun laws. Agility teaching is an adventure!

Would I go back to a seminar with Banksy to learn again as a student? I would. I’d make sure I wasn’t out of Advil though before hand. Did anything get fixed? I guess fix isn’t the right word. Changed. We’re looking for some change. So yes. And no robot surveillance unit necessary.

18 February 2019

Justine day at the Seminar.

My legs are very tired, I suspect that Banksy's are too. I would say I'm glad I'm not trying to qualify for any world teams this year, I would need a personal trainer to get my legs in much better shape and running much faster. It is a sad fact that my house is out of Advil and my legs are too tired to go to the store right now, luckily the couch is very soft. Which is probably how the legs are so out of shape in the first place.

I think my take home is that my handling is far from perfect, but Banksy is a genuinely awesome dog. I guess I already knew this, for far less money than I spent to have my Jessica and Justine lessons! But I am glad they are making money being able to help people get better at agility, so I think that's a worthy cause to support.

Would I go to another seminar with them? For sure! If I had the money. The people who go to so many seminars, yikes! That is a whole months worth of food! Including stops at the expensive bakery on the way to work. But running these courses with some good eyeballs to tell me when to not call so much and pull my arm back earlier seems like a good investment in a happy life. I hope I get the chance to Jessica and Justine again!

17 February 2019

Seminarniamania and Happy Birthday Banksy!

Last weekend I gave the seminar (more on that soon, I taught all weekend in Columbus, Ohio) this Sunday I got to take the seminar!

Today was Jessica day in International Skills and Drills. Thank god for the drills as I need more skills, I don't think I got through a single drill without having to go back and try some part of it again. We had a great time, I learned a lot that, even if I'm a lost cause, will help me teach better, and Banksy held it together through all my mistakes.

Tomorrow is Justine. Me and Banksy are both horribly out of shape, just what we needed to shape up!

A hard weave pole entry that we've missed training apparently, some sloppy things, some off course tunnels, a wide turn here and there. Banksy is amazing, and we'll call this her birthday party as she's just turned FIVE YEARS OLD! This was her very first time in a seminar, and she had loads of fun. Even when I messed up.

It was pretty much just like being in class. Take a turn, mess up, do it again, don't mess up. I threw a lot of toys for Banksy. Justine is very low key, no judgement on my start line, had good ideas to find nice lines and didn't always know the answers to things that I didn't know the answers to either.

Finally some agility to take a break from our very wet and muddy life at the moment! And more tomorrow! We're very lucky!

12 January 2019

Confidence Building for Agility Seminar in Ohio!

I've never been to a winter that wasn't in California. I've seen photos, and seen on tv, that other parts of the country have snow, and now I'm going to see it for myself, in Columbus, Ohio!

If you are near Columbus, and you need some confidence building in agility, maybe I can help. Or maybe not. No guarantees on that, but I sure will try. The super nice people at PosiDog in Columbus are bringing me out to teach a seminar the weekend of February 9 and 10.


I'm planning some fun sessions, and taking an airplane to get there and staying in a hotel. And going somewhere WITHOUT A DOG! I will bring all my jackets, every single one. And mittens. And two pairs of socks I guess? I wear three jackets at work usually, and I think it's been around 54 degrees...so I am thinking this is an adventure?

If you know anyone in Ohio that seems like they would like this, let them know! The agility is inside a building, that has heat! How crazy is that? This is my third seminar I've ever taught in my life and the other ones had my friends Tammy and Heather also teaching, and Tammy made us gift bags and lunches, so this one is a whole other thing...hopefully it goes well. Yikes.

31 December 2018

A pretty ok way to wrap up a year.

We spent the weekend at the Morgan Hill USDAA trial. I have no video. I wish I did, because I would have seen some of the best runs that Banksy and I had thrown down together. Hopefully this is just the start of how all our runs will be in 2019.

They weren't all this good, she had 2 bars in Steeplechase, with one of the fastest times in the show. And on the last day I made a few mistakes and twice used my fix and go option. But over the course of the weekend she had smoking fast wins in Grand Prix and Biathlon, and a selection of the titling classes. Banksy is winning with either the fastest or nearly fastest time of all the dogs at the trial.

She also had her first time faults ever! We had a showdown over laying on the table in standard, I just left it up to her and led out quite far across the ring. To her credit, she did lay down fast on the table, this isn't a problem anymore. I've stopped boycotting standard and retrained her table, it works good now for the most part. But when I led out on one of the standard runs, she fell off because the new way she lays on the table is hanging off the side. I just kept leading out, she flopped herself back on but had to hovercraft for quite a while till she laid herself back down while I just stood there laughing. The judge was either laughing or wishing I would hurry up.

Some of the runs were the best team work we've ever had, it's a feeling I don't think I can explain, and I haven't felt this before, except maybe with Otterpop when she used to read my mind on runs, Banksy though is reading my handling and I'm reading hers and it's pretty amazing how I can set fast tight lines and keep her on them. She is my dream dog, I can't believe I have a dog like Banksy.

Also she hit all her dog walks with PERFECT hits, two of them with hard exits, only one miss that was straight into a wall with a man sitting in a chair against it. One of my friend's dogs got that one though, that was an impressive sight. We just did a fix and go and worked on other things.

This was the year Banksy and Gustavo almost died. This was the year that Otterpop lost her mind. This was the year where some things went down at work. This was the year that's' been a hard one. Except most of the bad turned out ok. We hope that our luck holds up this year, welcome in advance, 2019.

22 December 2018

Shortest day, then the next day.

It was the shortest day yesterday, but I ditched out at work just before the sun went down and the dogs ran at the park while the almost full moon went up on one side, the sun went down into red and gold on the other, and we remembered that the days get longer starting now. It's tiny progress towards the sun but a progress nonetheless.

Otterpop marked the solstice by teaching us both that she doesn't want to be sedated when she has a night time dementia freakout. Maybe there's better drugs for her. She woke up at 3am from the Xanax that her vet had her try, and went full blown manic for a couple hours, running full steam and flipping out if captured and contained. We might not try that again.

Banksy played with her ball. Gustavo did his thing. We went to a party, the dogs slept. Christmas is coming, a few days off in a row, maybe not too much fun for the dogs though, a lot of busy and a lot of dog containing. Everyone will survive.

Happy Holidays to all.

02 December 2018

Santa Rosa USDAA in December.

This is a giant lemon trailer. It was so lemony!

There were 100% zero start lines this weekend. This affected things!

Second in Steeplechase, starting on a collection turn equals some time. Very nice fast run, very just ok time for Banksy. Because of the start, as I was hustling and her lines were spot on. Drat. Enough speed to come in second, enough to get some cash, but those precious seconds count!

Grand Prix, I did a fix and go. Because I caused a spin at the tunnel, which was an easy thing and the third thing but because of how I started, a spin, and I CANNOT HAVE A SPIN! I guess it wouldn't have been a refusal and I could have gone on for a Q, but I hate spins and can have but no spins due to my late and confusing information. So I stopped fixed and go'ed and we had a beautiful, flawless run for an E. Much happier for me and Banksy too. She doesn't know I just E'ed her, she just knows I ran her good after that.

Standard, not always my favorite because of the stupid table. A beautiful run with a weirdly fast table, I think because we arrived there together and she did the table like we do in practice. Amazing! And a tunnel for a start line to a dog walk, best way to start a course EVER! And then something went wrong on the timer, as I know we should have had a much, much faster time than was recorded. Such is life. The timer gods giveth and they taketh away. Banksy and I know it was a really good, really fast run.

Pairs. Very nice! Very rear crossy since not even attempting a start line now. Partner messed up. Pairs is short and dumb but we're there, might as well do it. I just sign up as a draw now and go with the flow.

Snooker. Disaster! Bail out! I should know by now, to not wait for last class of the day when far away, and I am so tired. Banksy isn't, but I am, and I know I want to be in the car driving home. And I made a poor choice with my very bold fast running plan and then a snowball effect of trying to save the shit storm till we just bailed out when Banksy said, I'll take this yellow jump over here, if that helps. Out we go.

Otterpop came with us and thrashed around in her crate every traffic jam. She didn't really enjoy nice walks around the Santa Rosa fairgrounds, which the rest of us enjoy. She currently decides lets get up at 2am! And if I try to lock her out of the bedroom due to my love of sleeping at 2am, runs around the house and howls. Poor Otterpop. She didn't want to sit on the lemon with Banksy, just run in circles on her leash while I stood still taking Banksy's photo. Gooey stayed home and ate pancakes.

28 November 2018

Good and bad.

Otterpop likes to sleep in her bed. Her preferred life at the moment would be to sleep in her bed on the couch, and I would sit there next to her. If we could do that all day, her life would be good.

Anything outside of that is not preferred, and has now crossed over into bad. If I get up when she's sleeping, she figures this out, and that's bad. She likes to walk on her leash in the forest, but just on a short walk. A long one is bad. Or a place she doesn't know, bad. The beach is good, but scary, she can walk into a wave or get stuck on rocks, so I manage it a lot to keep it good and make sure she can see me at all times. Walking in the neighborhood is bad, night time is really bad. Playing at the park is good, she still likes to chase a ball and follow us around, but at some magical point in her head that I can't predict, it turns into bad, in which case she may bolt out of the park, down the path, thru a parking lot, and into the road. Lots of things that were good a few months ago are slowly becoming bad.

She used to like to sleep in her crate in my car. That used to be just as good as her bed on the couch, and I didn't even have to be there. That's still good, until it gets bad, when it goes bad is unpredictable now. She used to like to hang out at work, that is all bad now. Walking down to the arena, bad. The tack room and barn aisle, bad. Her list goes on and on. Bad, bad bad.

If she isn't asleep on her bed, her mind is awake and she thinks things are bad. Bad means pacing and howling and crying and thrashing around. Usually when she wakes up, if I'm there and she can see me, it's not bad. But if I'm not there, bad. Me nowhere near her at any time is bad. Restraint is bad. Leashes are bad. Bad can mean she spins donuts around me if it happens on a leash, running in circles til I gather her up. Putting her harness on and off is bad. Standing still is bad. Travel is bad. Motels are bad. Long car trips are bad.

Sleeping at night is less bad since I started giving her melatonin at night, that seems to be zonking her out. So we can all get about 8 hours of good while she's sleeping. I think all my dogs when they got old started this behavior, I think it's just dementia of an old brain. Otterpop's seems a bit more manic, which makes sense, she's always been like that anyways. I just feel as bad as her when I see it click on to the bad setting, and we look for a way to reset it to good. Sometimes I can, sometimes I can't. The bads are coming more quickly than they used to, pushing out her goods.

So when I can, I just sit next to her on the couch. So we can have some good.

26 November 2018

San Luis Obispo USDAA RACE Trial.

Brodi is an Irish sport horse. Because of this fact and insurance reasons, he was not allowed to run Steeplechase this weekend and had to leave the arena during the walk thru. Also because I had no helmet. This was his first trial, and also Waffle the puppy's first trial and they both had a great time.

Banksy and I had fun too. Banksy is amazing. She won Grand Prix and Biathalon, came in 2nd in Steeplechase because I screamed too loud and she hit a bar. Some Qs in some other things, and I did hear that her team won Masters Pairs, so that's a thing of great importance in the universe. I know we had good gamblers, snooker, and a great jumpers with a bar. I know I did fix-and-go in both standards so there you go. I love the fix-and-go, have a bar, go do something to train. We had a trial with some Qs. Not sure what we need those for but I guess it's never bad to collect some. I like winning things like Grand Prix and Biathalon.

The best thing was an extra big ring with big running courses, those are our favorites, and one of our favorite judges. On the first day all good dog walk entrances and exits, we did a lot of dog walks and I love nothing more than seeing Banksy's beautiful, perfect hit. There was one hard exit, in pairs the first day, that she handled with her beautiful hit to my surprise, a hard collection turn to a backside jump on the side of the dog walk, we did not do the collection turn, I let her hit, turned her, and got to the jump no problem.

Second day was all soft turns with the dog walk heading into the wall. Well, all 2 of them. These are our worst one, she hates to look at the wall and the soft turn jump was far enough away that she wouldn't see it as much as the wall. The first one I got ahead so she could see me, showed her a turn, and she had a beautiful hit! Then I was on the difficult side of the line and sent her in a wrong side of the tunnel 2 jumps upstream. Worth it! It was standard, and we have fix-and-go and who cares about standard and it's stupid table. She did miss that hit in biathlon standard later, where it just cost us a time fault, because I couldn't get ahead, I had to decel to show a turn and go the other way and that was that. But so many good hits all weekend!

Otterpop told me that she hates travel and cannot stay in motels anymore without having an anxiety attack. So that was fun. We haven't had a luxury girls weekend away in quite a long time, Gary and Gooey stayed home and us girls stayed in Motel 6 near the Whole Foods and grand Laguna Lake dog park, both other exciting places on our trip. Banksy and I would like to go to more trials, maybe we can find a way to make that happen. Or maybe not. Sure would be fun!

20 November 2018


If we walk right now, it's in the smoke. Otterpop can only do the shortest loop, I carry her up the hills. Sometimes she drags along, other times she leaps to the front and tries to bolt. She's twice pulled her leash out of my hand, and bolted into the road. Her brain doesn't tell her this is a bad idea anymore. I keep a light attached to her at night, and a sturdy grip. Even at the park, a close watch, there's a timer running in her head and when it dings, it's time to run for the hills. I'm not sure what's going on in there, the inner workings of Otterpop. I'm glad most of the time she's happy to sleep in her bed.

19 November 2018

The thing about luck.

You can get this coyote face on a t-shirt, and 100% of the proceeds from it go to help displaced humans and their animals from the Camp Fire. Coyote shirt.

You might already know this story. But I'm writing about it for an upcoming Clean Run article, so test driving a different version here. It's kind of a Thanksgiving-ish too, but with red fiery bloody coyote eyes. Also, Gustavo has sent away all his left over hospital monies to sick dogs and fire victim animals so I thought I'd make a coyote shirt and if you buy it the money goes to help more fire victims. OK.


A great way to go through life is basically lucky. Ordinary life rolls along, maybe you’re not doing so great, but really, you’re not doing so bad. If you have a dog and can do agility, even if some things are down in the dumps, probably you’re doing ok, things could be a lot worse.

Lucky is you have warm blankets on a bed in a genuine house with walls, and cans of beans in the cupboard. The cupboard may be tiny, and there may be a rootin’ tootin’ cowboy of a mouse scurrying around in there sometimes, but it’s there. Lucky is, you have a dog! You go to work and you can pay for oil changes on a car that drives and buy a braided fleece leash in four bright colors, now that’s a lucky life. Look forward to traveling to a trial in the sunshine, a few days in a modest motel where you can cover up the germy bed clothes with one of your own warm blankets, and the chance to run with your dog on tricky courses and maybe win it all, or at least go down trying.

Lucky is, lucky til you’re not. That's a thing about luck, it changes. That’s the day, you go to retrieve your dog from her crate at agility, and your dog looks dead. You drag her out, try to stand her up and she’s not there, her warm fur collapses, folds to the ground like a floppy stuffed donkey and her bulk rolls down the hill. Right through the pokey oak leaves and giant biting ants. That ever happened to you? I hope not.

When it happened to me I quick shoved the flop back in the car and drove as fast as I could to the emergency dog hospital. I’ve been there before, knew exactly how to get there. Don’t die don’t die don’t die don’t die don’t die. That was the only song I could sing, had to turn off the radio because there just wasn’t a soundtrack for ambulance rushing a dying dog anywhere in the air waves, no matter what channel I twisted the dial to. Not Elvis Costello, forget the Cure, just my own soundtrack that would keep my dog alive.

That was a long 29 minutes not hitting anyone, staying on the road, make sure nobody else was going to die. When I swung into the car park, I quick opened the hatch, lugged out a body, which still felt warm and vaguely breathing, and ran into the waiting room. I was that person, running in the door with a lifeless dog carcass screaming, “Please save my dog please save my dog.”

Spoiler alert, this story has a happy ending, if you’re one of those people that sniffs out the ending in case it’s one of those weepies where the dog dies, so you can slam that page shut and never open it again.

There were dog nurses, dog doctors, a dog neurologist. A dog receptionist who handed out kleenex at the counter. In the end, nobody knew what happened to my dog, maybe a stroke, maybe a seizure, maybe an embolism, something bad happened in her brain. There were a lot of maybes and zero for sures. After she could walk again and they sprung her from the hospital, she walked OK but for dragging her right back leg, and I had to keep her quiet except for tiny little walks three houses up to the corner from my house. Four houses if you count the duplex as two. We walked like ancient grandma garden snails, all of us dragging all our toes to walk slow enough. Down to the corner we shuffled, Banksy’s right hind dragging every step. We’d hang out there on the corner, letting her sniff the breeze, and then slowly drag back home.

I figured no more agility ever. The specialists all shrugged and said, we’ll have to wait and see. That was fine. I was happy my dog was alive. Banksy might be a crazy eyed weirdo, but she’s the crazy eyed weirdo love of my life and how lucky was that, that I didn’t lose her?

Slowly the toe drag got better, and then I hoped, ok, maybe agility someday. I’m really lucky. Life, it could go on, maybe some agility could happen, somewhere in the future. Just taking a walk faster than a snail was exciting. A couple months later, we ventured back to the woods. She had built up to where she could walk on her own, just a quick loop, maybe a mile off the leash, trying to build back some strength and see if that toe could stop scuffing. All of us, elderly Otterpop on her leash, Gustavo with ants in his pants from the whole snail business, ready for an easy stretch of forest closet to my house.

We all huffed up the hill, none of us in any kind of shape to speak of. It was early, I had to be at work, the light was dim, we were in one of the darkest hollows, on our way up to the sun. On our right we all together spied a pointy coyote face peering out of the dry, tangly brush, two cold eyes fixed on us. Everyone growls, except Otterpop, she doesn’t know much these days, tottering along on her little rope by my feet. The coyote didn’t move a muscle, fixed hard glare on us trespassers through his grove. Usually when this happens, I gather up the littles, and throw a branch yelling kung fu sounds, a sure way to run off most coyotes. None of my dogs like them, they have a very smart fear, they stay near and wait til it's moved on, then we all go about our lives

Well, not this time. Gustavo and Banksy were a bit ahead, so I whisked them forward, “Just go go go you guys.” We’d get up to the clearing and be out of the coyote’s way and on with our walk. Everybody shares in the forest. I sent them ahead, around a bend in the path shrouded by a redwoods, vast trees that obscure the views with their majesty. They’re scenic, historic, and cache carbon in their fibers. But in this case, they hid what was waiting up ahead.

A second coyote. As the dogs reached Number Two, Coyote Number One came screaming out of the brush, rushing behind Otterpop and me with a whoosh, flying past us towards Banksy and Gustavo. Ambush. I started screaming, and Banksy came back running, with no Gustavo. I could see up ahead two coyotes darting into the manzanita thicket. And still no Gustavo.

Gustavo weighs in at 12 lbs on his most substantial day. Coyotes are bigger, heavier, and run a lot faster. The only place he could have been at that moment was in one of their mouths.

So I did what anybody would have done. Screaming at the top of my lungs, I grabbed up Otterpop, and dove into a thorny thicket, strands of manzanita and deadwood, poison oak and berry brambles. I fought my way in with with a very freaked out Banksy following close behind, thrashing through branches and vines, with a sharp stick as my only weapon. I screamed out for Gooey, and each time was answered only by a shrieking coyote call.

Over and over, “GOOEY!”,only to be answered with a shrill string of yips instead.

There was a long search, and the realization sinking like a weight, that a little dog couldn't live through being taken by coyotes. We searched half heartedly for a day and a night, mostly hoping to find a shred of fur, a collar, a bone. Shrouded in a fog, my brain only working half speed, wandering through the woods, calling the name of his ghost. This made a slightly draggy toe on a live dog seem like a distant, tiny memory, who cared if her toe dragged, at least she was alive. Gustavo, the sweetest joy of a dog, wasn’t. Taken horrifically by the woods he dashed through every single day.

Those were some darkest hours. All the luck drained out and burned. The unluckiest.

Shambling along at work two days after he was taken, I extracted a voice mail out of my phone, cel phones hate our mountains. A scratchy message from a teacher at a tiny mountain school on the edge of the forest. All I could get from it were the words, We Have Gustavo. I’ve never felt like that before, like someone pumped goodness through ever single one of my veins, goodness and luck and life. I sped across the windy grade to the school, where his lifeless little body lay on blanket in a corner by a filing cabinet. The eight graders had found him under the deck on the edge of the woods, where a steep path comes up from the creek.

Don’t die don’t die don’t die. Another one of those drives, down to town, down the freeway, and back to the hospital.

Dog doctors, specialists, ivs, pills, liquids, shots and eyedrops, everything all over again and more. He was covered with puncture wounds, and most of his ribs were broken. Everything inside bruised and some things smashed and torn, but eventually unfolding that nothing smashed was life threatening, nothing vital was pierced. I made the first doctor to see him cry, telling him what happened. I guess that my screaming Death-to-Coyotes rampage had freaked them out enough to let him go and he somehow he got his broken little body across the forest, down the hill, over the creek and up the hill to where the school was on the far side of the woods.

Another dog home from the hospital, another long, slow rehab, which were maybe some of the happiest days of my life. Another realization, this time even grander, that I had a miracle on my hands.

When you have two dogs almost die one right after the other, agility looks a lot smaller. Instead of looking at it head on, you’re stepping back and seeing it from a distant horizon, it’s fuzzier, it’s receding, vaseline on the lens. You might miss it and wave at it, but all of a sudden, it feels a lot less important.

Did I think I’d be able to return to agility with either dog? Nope.

Did I want to return to agility with either dog? Well, yeah. Although Gustavo, he’d be ok without it, he’s 12 years old and loves all the things the same. Sitting on my lap and eating pancakes and trying to kill gophers and splashing around in the creek and teeters. Shredding up paper towels, doing a tunnel, playing with a poodle at the park. Equal.

But, Banksy. She had just turned four years old and I felt like we were about to step up to what would be her very best year, not step down to the the ending place of never again. Agility over rides most everything for her, she’s one of those dogs who really has the bug, I think she might be my agility dog of my lifetime. She loves hiking and the beach and running at the park, but show her an agility field, that’s what lights her crazy eyes up.

I went to help out at a few trials during those months of maybes and rehabbing. That was pretty ok. People expressed condolences at the end of my agility career but were super happy I had two live dogs. I had so many generous friends and people to thank, hundreds of dog lovers had kicked in to pay all of Gooey’s vet bills. Life would go on, just a different kind of life.

There was still a maybe. I had a few starts and stops with Banksy. We started to train a bit, had some back sliding. She had another small seizure. Hurt a different foot. I had no doubt everything stemmed with that right hind and backed off again. My hopes were raised, then dashed low. I became obsessive, watching every step she took thru a microscope. Started training again. Then stopped. Then started again.

Really, though, every time I walked in my house after work, and had genuinely alive dogs jump up to greet me, I could only feel lucky. Right before my very eyes, my dogs weren't dead.

Five months later, I ran Banksy in a regional. I almost scratched, she was entered on a team, I almost called it all off when that right hind looked a little funny the week before. But she seemed ok, I still ran her. She won a couple classes, won a bronze medal in one of the finals. She wouldn’t climb up on the podium, it was pushed up against a white tent that made flapping sounds in the breeze, so she sat nearby while I climbed on the box and held up her prize for the photo. That’s so Banksy.

The weekend just before, I ran Gustavo around a jumpers course. He did it perfectly, like a blazing fast squirrel, with his signature move of an off course tunnel right at the ending. I’ve never been happier to see him turn away from me and find a tunnel then come running back for the finish. Both my dogs, presumed dead, now not just alive but alive and finding themselves beloved off course tunnels, that dashing in made my heart almost burst.

Truly a miracle. The fact that I can take my dogs to the park, and throw a ball, or go down to the beach and let them play in the waves, then bring them back home to my living room couch, even better. That’s the luck part, right there. Dogs sprawled across my living room furniture, sandy paws up on the couch, eyes look up at me and they leap up to jump all over me when I walk in. Luckiest person ever, miracle dogs.

11 November 2018

Bonehead move.

In today's episode of really stupid things one can do at agility, I threw away the potential of a perfectly lovely Grand Prix Q and bye on a really nice clean run on a course with the hardest, scariest dog walk entrance possible (sort of raise left hand and say go go and take off running) and a horrible exit I thought Banksy would miss (beat her up there, get the hit and scream her name and front cross with gusto), by somehow running Banksy by the very easy last jump instead of telling her to go over it.

05 November 2018

Finding Ready Face

I could spend all day looking at my dogs' cute faces. Banksy has perfectly round crazy eyes, Gustavo’s tongue flaps out of his mouth sideways, and Otterpop looks like a manic landshark on crack. Dog training nerd that I am, my favorite face from them is their Ready Face. It’s their own personal game face, the one that says, “Oh YEAH. Let’s DO THIS NOW!” Not to be confused with a poker face, nothing hidden in this expression, Ready Face lays it all out on the line. When I see it at the start of a training session, or on a startline, I have no fear. It’s my dog’s way of telling me that life is good, and no matter what else is going on around them, they've made the choice that they're ready to run.

So, what if you don’t see a Ready Face? Instead of that excited, intense, happy look, maybe you get something else. Sniffy face. Nervous face. Squirrel face. Mopey face. Anything but Ready Face.

Not Ready Face isn't limited to dogs. Maybe you're this person. Maybe you know this person. Maybe you’re married to them. Keys in hand, coat is on, one foot out the door, you call out, “Ready to go?”

There’s no answer. Or the answer is faint and coming from somewhere that is nowhere near the back door. You notice a shadowy figure moving across the hall, perhaps muttering to themselves about just five more minutes, and they're not wearing pants. Perhaps they're just about to start a plumbing project under the kitchen sink. The plan of leaving on time, or maybe leaving at all, has been foiled.

You can nag. Beg. Cajole. Yell. Remind them of how late you are. There is an excellent chance that doing any or all of these things won’t actually help move things along, and will probably make it worse. Too much pressure. And boy-oh-boy, loves being pressured?

Reasons For Not Ready Face

I bet your dog loves agility. Why wouldn’t they? Chasing you, jumping over things, climbing up stuff, fantastic rewards awarded liberally for zooming around with their very best person. But maybe it’s harder for them to do it around (pick one or as many as you want from this list) a bunch of other dogs, beeping noises, score table snacks, nervousness exuding from your pores, gophers in the grass, squirrels in the tree, growly ringside tuggers, timers placed in front of the first jump by the devil, an evil teeter totter in plain view, weird ring fencing, weird handling, a pole setter in an ugly hat, a leash runner with no personal space boundaries, hot weather, cold weather, a flapping tent, no toy in your hand, no cookies coming along for the ride, not understanding the earth shattering importance of this Q, the potential of alien craft landing while they’re in the weave poles, and oh, so many more. Maybe your dog just has a sensitive soul. But no matter how good those contacts or weaves are at home, it’s going to be hard to ace them in the trial if your dog can't tell you they're ok to run when they're heading to the start line.

Instead of being ready to go, they might lay down and roll around. Give you a blank stare. Sniff around the dirt. Look backwards instead of forwards. Bite a mouthful of grass. Get up. Wander off. Run away. Doesn’t matter so much what it is, just matters that they’re telling you they’re not ready to go. And in that moment, whatever you do to try to get them going puts more pressure on them so they can't move off the start, which is a key component for an outstanding agility run.

I think the first biggest thing to do is what not to do. Not plead. Not scold. Not shout at them to “Hurry Up You Lazy Jerkface.” If your dog is having an anxiety fueled moment, likely all that's counterproductive. Just picture using that line at your significant other who's carrying around a detached kitchen faucet 40 minutes before your plane is leaving. Righty-o. A history of this happening over and over and over just makes it worse. Instead, wouldn’t you rather set up a new pattern, an improved dynamic, that helps them make their own choice to put on their very own Ready Face? One they bring to you, how cool would it be to count on that every time? At least for your dog. As far as changing your significant other, you're on your own for that.

Here’s some suggestions for Finding a Ready Face:

It's never supposed to feel icky.

It’s your dog! They love you! They've been there for you through thick and thin. And I just bet, that if they were feeling ok, they really would want to run with you, but some missing piece of confidence is holding them back. Agility's supposed be fast and fun for the whole team, not just half. It should be light. It can even be funny. Tremendously humbling humor can be found in an ill timed blind cross or wrongly screamed directionals. If your dog's lost their sense of humor, maybe yours can help them bring it back. Does your dog need to laugh? Look silly. This is not a job for the grim and humorless. When they start to expect something they think is fun, they start to show you a Ready Face.

Confidence building by playing

Dogs like patterns, they like to know what to expect. You go put on your shoes, it’s walk time. I bet you see some Ready Face then. What if their ready for agility pattern got messed up somewhere along the line? Learning some of the things got hard, maybe just hard enough that they lost a little confidence. Maybe their rewards got lower. Nobody meant for this to happen, but a little confidence lost along the way can add up, and if it got paired up with some outside stressors, that would certainly shut a dog down. Building up confidence can happen by messing around and having fun, just like you probably do every day at home, for no reason other than it’s fun to play with your dog. Maybe change the pattern by upping the proportion of play time to training. Snuggles. Toys. Ball tossing. Laughing. Lighten it up. Your dog loves being with you, and bringing the love back to the agility field is key. Ready Face is their choice, so you can’t force them to play or bite that tuggy. You just want to remember that playing with you is just as fun at training as it is in your driveway. When your dog expects something happy, they ask you to continue with it. Ready!

Dying bunnies.

You bring out the toy and your dog says, “Yuck, I don’t want to play with you and your stupid toy.” Can you change that pattern by getting rid of the pressure to grab the toy? A lot of dogs think a toy waving in front of their nose sucks. Do they like chasing bunnies? Especially wounded ones? Make like a maimed bunny who is desperately trying to get out of dodge. The toy runs away. It's low to the ground. The toy darts into a hiding place. The toy must get away from the dog to avoid certain death. Sometimes thinking like a bleeding, three legged rabbit can get your dog back to playing. Sorry, bunnies. When the game catches on, next time you hide the toy behind your back, do you get a ready face? Release them to the toy! Play again! The bunny is dying! Hide it in your pocket. Do you get a Ready Face? Release to the toy! Don't bring the agility piece in just yet, create a new fun pattern of wanting the toy first. Baby bunny steps.

Raid the toy bag.

Sometimes facing away from your dog, taking off, and dragging a new toy behind you is all it takes to get some interest. My toy bag has squeakies, balls, tuggies, long tuggies, short tuggies, furry things, things with pouches, things on long strings, things on bungie cords, toys tied onto toys, you name it, it probably lives in my toy bag. It’s huge. See if you can raid a friend’s toy bag and take a toy for a whirl. Just don’t start out with the front facing face dangle move that has a great chance of making your toy aversive rather than awesome. Think like that poor little bunny, and off you go. Make it YOUR toy, not theirs. The chance of something new and exciting might get your dog ready.

Play with your food.

Food toys where you can stuff the food are cool for the dogs that like their cookies, but just sticking a chunk of food in a furry thing and expecting miracles is the wrong route. Get it moving. Doesn't have to be fancy, throw the chicken in a paper bag and tie it to a rope, drag that stinky thing around while you’re singing your favorite Elton John song, see if your dog can catch it and tear it up. Your dog hates Elton John? Sing something they like! Your dog's love of chasing you is a huge part of agility, and bringing that back to your routine can help you get a quicker route to Ready Face.

The way your food gets delivered can sometimes shake things up. Do you always throw it in a food toy? Get them to chase it to your hand! Do you always toss the cookie in the grass? Toss it in the food toy. Put it in a box. Run away with a whole stick of cheese. Bring a pancake to the field with you. Food can be a whole game in and of itself. Move that food!

Comfort level building.

Belly rubs, pats, what makes your dog feel better? Some dogs just need to feel your hands on them again before you leave them. How does your dog like to play at home, in the house? Somewhere they don’t have any anxiety? Whatever has them too nervous to sit there alone while you leave and lead out can sometimes be relieved just by goofing with them on the start line the same way as you do in your own living room and nobody's watching. Maybe you’re sitting down on the grass with them, or laying in the dirt. Just the tiniest, littlest game. Does their comfort level start to come back? Observe closely. Was that a Ready Face? Quick, go back to playing! Rinse and repeat, tiny repetitions of tiny little play times can build a lot of confidence, and eventually start to not just condition your dog that play time building attention gets them more play time, but maybe more importantly, helps them feel better in situations that were causing them to be stressed out.

Everybody on the same page.

If your dog is really scared of something, your energy level might not help them out if it’s in a whole different universe than theirs. Probably it’s not going to help to be a jolly applause freaker, clapping and whooping it up for a dog who isn't ready or wanting to play. Make a quiet little game just for the two of you, right there on the grass, and see if you can quietly build their energy level back up to where playing might happen again. Finding a teensy, tiny Ready Face is the start to finding more of them.

Distraction refocus in little bits.

Using little pieces, go all the way back to rewarding eye contact, because who doesn’t like that in a ready face? When Gustavo was young, he was way more excited about the squirrel in the tree than training. And our training field is surrounded by great big trees. So I’d just put on his leash, sit there in a plastic chair and wait him out with a cookie in hand. The tiniest flick of his eyes back to me from the squirrel tree? Cookie. Repeat. So many times. Using this patience of a saint method, instead of the begging cheerleader method, eventually conditioned him that eye focus on me was more rewarding than the promise of the squirrel. Dog math says that more reinforcement over time is going to eventually win over a low probability chance of ever getting the squirrel. That turned into longer eye contact. Which turned into a stay. Which turned into a lead out. Which turned into doing an obstacle. And so on and so forth until there were whole courses with him chasing ME, instead of the critters running outside the field.

Making the whereabouts and reliability of the reward more easy to figure out.

Try backchaining with a magic box that can house whatever the very best reward is. Steak! Cheese bits! The very best tuggy! Whatever that very best reward is for your dog, stick it in a cooler big enough to hold a six pack. Let the dog attack the cooler, and reward. Repeat! Move it away. Attack cooler, reward comes out! Back chain this to a send. Then a jump. Then another. Try it at the end of the weave poles. You're just making it Extremely Obvious to your dog that there is reinforcement available to them. What starts as a dog who learns to drive to the cooler to find their reward you can chain longer sequences together where they see the reward. Then that cooler can start to move off to field in baby steps. Eventually moves to their crate. The sequences get longer. Eventually your dog gets it that their magic box is always going to be there, even if they can’t see it. Knowing for sure what's happening at the end makes it a lot easier for them to give you a Ready Face at the beginning.

Moving feet on dogs with stuck feet.

If you get that deer in the headlights look from your dog, get their feet moving with moving food or cute tricks that involve feet moving, not staying put. Do you have cute party tricks? Training tricks always cracks me up. Besides getting better at shaping every time I train a trick, I have an arsenal of things my dog can do that usually cracks them up too. Little spins, swirling around me, running through my legs, bouncing, backing up, revving up position, if your dog gets stuck on the startline in a freeze frame, practice these tricks in all the other places, and then move them to your start. Have you ever tried tossing a cookie, then running away to toss the new cookie? If your dog likes finding cookies, eventually your feet moving predicts, you got it, tossing cookies, easiest trick in the world! Prediction of a cookie coming is a great way to start a Ready Face.

Rough transitions from point A to point B.

If getting to the start is the problem, how about happy heeling, as opposed to sad heeling or dog dragging. This can set your dog up for a whole new pattern in that tricky transition from outside the ring where the treats are, to inside the ring where the agility begins. Use prancercise as your guide. You want your dog glued to your leg, bright eyes up, feet prancing like a pony in a parade. Lots of rewards for this in lots of places first, til it becomes a pattern that predicts the fun’s about to start.

Ready on the road.

If just getting your dog to engage with you and finding consistent motivation at your training field is tricky, a trial’s going to be even trickier. So don't do it yet. Have your bag of tricks ready, and start moving the games with baby steps towards the trial. Like from your yard to the driveway. With a squirrel watching! From the driveway to the sidewalk in front of your house. With neighbor kids on tiny pink unicorn bikes watching. To the nearby park. With the skateboard kids watching. To the grocery store parking lot. With bored security guards on a smoke break watching. To downtown. Where naked clowns on unicycles could be watching, depending on what town you live in. Move in little bits, til trials are just another spot where the prediction of fun guarantees you a Ready Face.

That's what you're making your new normal, they're bringing that face to YOU, so you don't have to ask for it. A Ready Face can't over ride all the stressful, scary things, but it's going to give you a lot better chance of your dog feeling good enough to pick playing with you when those things come up. Best of all, it should be fun to look for, because you're figuring out what the magic key is that makes your dog happy. Ready? Set? And go!

Pyramid Power

There are lots of different food pyramids. My personal pyramid, sanctioned by neither the USDA nor the USDAA, rockets skyward to a summit of chocolate peanut butter cup ice cream, hovering over layers of black bean burritos and artisan hard cider, especially the kind that’s been dry hopped with organic fruit. The firm foundation is a base of thin crust pizza and salad, featuring asparagus and caramelized onions. And sandwiches. This food pyramid is not to be confused with a food chain. The pyramid’s been carefully constructed as aspiring upwards starting from the bottom, where as the chain heads downwards. Great white sharks are at the top of the chain and their mission is to eat all us down below. Although we’re supposed to see the chain as not all together a negative thing, more circle of life, where life is actually pseudonym for death, as our guts end up decomposing in shark poop that fertilizes growing kelp which seagulls can carry ashore and is harvested for sushi wraps and toothpaste and so forth, which helps the world keep spinning around the sun.

There are plenty of warnings of pyramids and chains. Everybody always warned me about that food pyramid when I was young and could eat like a logger without gaining an ounce. Then I got older and got what they were talking about. For youngish agility people, the ones with all those colorful tights and thigh gaps of gazelle-like limbs, I am telling you now, it is not a lie. This food pyramid will undo your fast running, then you will probably have to re-pyramid yourself and the top is going to have broccoli with a row of hard boiled eggs beneath it. As for the chain? Predators with teeth sit up there in the top, and that's usually not the greatest place to be, below a beady eyed predator watching you from above.

Dog agility has it’s own pyramids and chains. Every subculture does. Traditional dog agility lore stacks the mythology like this. Winning a gold medal at the World Championships is the pinnacle. Congratulations to some of my friends who have won this, you pyramid toppers, you. Standing on the podium with a flag behind you in a crowded arena, complete with screaming fans and national anthems. Winners are the queen bees, the big hurrah. The conventional wisdom of the little voice inside my head tells me to strive for this. Even though I don’t compete in AKC events. Or have any interest in putting my dog into an airplane to fly across the sea. Or the ability to run those courses without an E.

But still. It’s the lore. It’s the pyramid. It’s the way things are done around here.

Sitting under the AWC are some of the other European vacation championships. They go by various acronyms. They too involve complicated airplane tickets and motel reservations in countries where English may not be spoken and vegetarian food may be sparse except for as a side on a plate of mutton, culminating in podiums and medals. They maybe don’t have quite the shiny reputation of the World Championships, but they still involve jet setting off to exotic locations to compete against the best of the best.

These are propped up by all the National Championships. Preface your own flavor with the initials of your choice. People zig zag across the country for these events, pack their dogs into motorhomes and again, the airplanes. There are shining trophies, fluffy ribbons the size of adult raccoons, and checks for winners. Exciting rounds leading up to the finals. Does everybody who goes really have a chance to win? I dunno. I’ve gone. I’ve never won. I have a glimmer, though, of maybe, just maybe, maybe in a someday.

The pyramid’s base? That holds all this up? The salad and healthy grains foundation? Perhaps Regionals, and then the local trials. Titling, tournamenting, the things you can do closer to your own zip code. Competitors interested in titles can compete to their heart’s delight, racking up the Qs for Top Ten points or fancy long titles, numerical MACHs and Metallics. Or maybe just enough to move up for the bigger events sitting on top for the people who don’t care about the titles. Something for everybody, with varied levels of competition to get there.

So just like how I enjoy a frothy dark beer and garlic fries way better than a bowl of raw greens, your candy coated pointy top might look different than mine. Thus we got our food chains. Where everybody thinks their pyramid is the magic power kind, and starts eating everybody else lower on the chains. Everybody on their own trips. You’re racking up local Qs to go to an Invitational? Good for you. I’m tired of gathering up local Qs so am going to a Regional? Bully for me. One of these things is better than the other? Your mileage may vary. The stronger the opinions grow as they move up the pyramid seems to make the biting down the chain a bit sharper.

We just tried moving up a rung on the agility pyramid. It wasn’t easy. I made a leap of faith, blew off work on the premise of Important Dog Agility Business, and packed up as much food from all levels of the pyramid as I could fit in my car. Ice, cooler, ice, cooler, shopping bag, zip loc bag, tupperware, repeat. Banksy and I headed down to a 3 day USDAA Regional at a fancy rodeo grounds on the outskirts of Phoenix, where the strip malls gave way to saguaro groves and dusty front yard furniture sales. The drive was twelve straight hours of dogs shoved in their crates, storing up their energy for nights in the cheapest motel I could find that wasn't located behind a bus station or adjacent to a strip joint. It felt like a grand, unique adventure. Although on the drive, I kept running into friends at rest stops in the desert who also had the same exact travel foods in their coolers, all of us listening intently to lengthy audio books over our car bluetooths, in the same exact cars. Grand, unique adventures all exactly the same for dog agility ladies.

The dog show had it’s ups and downs. Banksy’s magical superhero skill is to never hit a bar, and she took down 5 in the first few rounds. Our runs were just ok. I ate a freakish number of apples and peanut butter sandwiches and drank copious amounts of coffee. There is zero glamour in traveling to big events with dogs. Zero. Days in the cars, nights in a motel where the tv is bolted into the wall and semi trucks idle outside. More coffee and apples when you’re so done with coffee and apples. Dragging the stuff from the car to the motel room and back and forth again. Crabby dogs, dust, dry skin, falling into an unfamiliar bed at night and getting up at the crack of dark to do it all over again.

The big Grand Prix final was on Sunday. I walked the course and knew right away we weren’t winning anything, Banksy hates running dogwalks that shoot into a blank space or a wall, and this one did both those things. We ran, a pretty darn good run aside from the nothing wall dilemna, Banksy doesn’t like what she doesn’t like and that was it. No glamour, no applause, no podium, no medals or photoshoots with the desert wind blowing through my tangled up hair since conditioner never works in motel showers. No comments from the peanut gallery. Just me and my dog and an agony of defeat. Which didn’t sting too bad because, all in all, it was kind of a great run, if you happened to have blink when Banksy’s feet skipped the yellow on the down ramp of the dogwalk.

Back into the car we went, back across the desert with our coffee and apples and pb&j’s, back home to our people. Who scratched their heads when we had to admit that nope, we didn’t win anything.

“You didn’t win?”

Nope. How do you explain there can be so much good, so much joy in a nearly flawless Masters Challenge round, even though a bar comes down at the end or a missed contact in a Grand Prix final?

“So you didn't even win any money?”

Definitely not any money. A weekend of exhaustion, mild discomfort and low grade stress with a final tally that we reveal itself on next month’s credit card bill.

“Wow, bummer.” This is said with a very sad face for us, because apparently, I just admitted to loserdom.

I get it. You can judge me, this is how we find our spots on the food chain. We really tried. But we just didn’t win. Lots of people didn't win. Except somehow all of my facebook friends seemed to be posting podium photos. Did coming home with no more loot than the complimentary sunscreen and chapstick from my goodie bag move us up on the pyramid, or did it actually bump us lower down the chain?

“Well, if it weren’t for all those bars, that E in Jumpers, and that one missed contact…”

Here’s where the food chain gets a bit toothy as the pyramid gets slippy. Why bother going? If you can’t win at these things, why not just try to get more Qs at local shows? Climbing up the pyramid’s tiring, wouldn't it be easier to just stay home and try that new brunch place instead? I heard they have mushroom paninis. Is making that attempt and not winning more lofty than someone who stays home to get all the Q’s for more titles? If I were to tell you that I’m bored of trying to get Qs for titles, and I'd like try for some big events, is that the same thing while simultaenously completely opposite as someone who is working their butt off to get all the Qs for all the titles and who could give a hoot about the fancy trials?

The bipartisan dichotomies of modern times strikes again. Populists vs. elites, vegan vs. paleo, Jets vs. Sharks, pinch collars vs. cookies. No matter how you slice it, somebody wants to be a top and to have a top, you got to have a bottom.

Everybody on their own trips. No need to chomp off somebody’s nose and fins because their pyramid looks different than yours. Who cares if your summit to win the AWC, get a medal at a Regional or just get out of Advanced? I'll be happy when you're climbing your stairway up to wherever you're going, maybe you’ll be happy for me for where I climb mine to.

The pointy top on my pyramid? It may shape change by next week. It’s kind of a short pyramid. With an all knowing, glow in the dark eyeball floating around on the top. It's made out of tin, lives in the woods and pops out of trees. I have a ladder propped up to it, which sometimes falls down. I'll just write a little note in sharpie, on the back of a wrinkled envelope, and stick it on the side.

“Eat a carrot and hard boiled egg. Train more dogwalk exits.”

Back up we go, rung by rung. Reaching for the summit.

07 October 2018

Turlock Oct USDAA and why is she named Banksy?

Why is she named Banksy?


Who else could she possibly be named after?

Turlock USDAA. Drive fast, get there, run a beautiful jumpers except for the part where I send her to a wrap by saying OVER, which she takes literally, because she's 4. And a trained dog now. Over means jump that thing there and not turn. So that's what she did and then took the next thing too, because OVER. But gosh darn, the rest of it was so spot on and so fast.

Then a beautiful snookers. I wish I had video. I made a plan inspired by the worlds in Sweden and sent to some far things to do 2 (7)s in the beginning and had some trickiness to get my plan. It was great and she had the last bar on the last jump of the 7 combo in the close. But I thought it was a great run anyways. Banksy is amazing. And I didn't drift off any of the backsides, so that's getting better, for now at least. A work in progress.

Grand Prix. She's beautifully trained. So something I did turned her too wide on 2. No video to know what was this thing I did. I got rushy, because we had to beat our friend Snips to get the bye I wanted. And when I got rushy, I said right-tunnel at jump 4, instead of just right, and, being the literal genius that Banksy is, righted to the tunnel. She's amazing. I have trained her well. But she doesn't yet have a feel for when I am just joking and telling her the wrong thing. Rest of the run was amazeballs. Nice dw!

Then we went home, which was a good thing because the sky was on fire and my phone was buzzing by the time we got home. The end of the story was we did NOT have to evacuate the horses and it was not on fire up the road. But the beginning of the story it was and it was awful there for a while and I sure can't wait for the rain to start.

And to set up some sequences from Worlds in Sweden. Oh my! We did try one of the weave entrances before I taught Saturday class. It took a few tries! Oh my. A lot of inspiration and a long ways to go. Maybe I need to focus on just saying the right words! Or into the shredder I go.

10 September 2018

Who doesn't like flying with an angry, demented chihuahua?

Otterpop used to like flying pretty good. She could be crabby at the end of a long airplane flight, but generally thought the whole exciting trip through security, airport tours, and a nap under the seat in a tote bag was all a-ok.

Then she got old and her new view on this is, NO NO NO NO NO NO NO WAY.

She made that perfectly clear from the moment of being shoved under the seat, loudly and frantically, much to the horror of many of my neighboring airplane passengers. I threw in cookies, which maybe helped a tiny bit, but mostly just kept my hands in there petting here until she zonked herself out and fell asleep.

Luckily we weren't going far, just up to Portland to teach at a seminar.

The Oregon School for Clever Dogs Clever Confidence Camp was this weekend! A long weekend of talking and helping agility people with nervous or fearful or worried or unmotivated or sensitive or whatever kinds of dogs figure out how to help their dogs feel a little better and less nervous or worried or scared or emotional or even just not wanting to come back over to their people after a run. A lot of start line routines, end line routines, practice patterns of new ways of reinforcing, and playing with toys. And hunks of string cheese.

Everyone had some fun, I hope, except Otterpop. Everyone learned some things, I learned new things too, and had to head scratch on some ideas to help out some of the dogs. Tricky! And then had to pack up Otterpop back into her tote bag and fly her one last time in full meltdown mode back home.

Sorry Otterpop! No more airplane trips for you, I promise.

05 September 2018

Banksy likes to keep me guessing.

In March 2017, she crashed on a jump in the covered arena at Santa Rosa, and for the next couple of months after that, I couldn't tell if she was too injured to jump, or too scared to jump, or both. Mostly she didn't want to turn left over jumps, but it spread to all the jumps. So I gave her a few months off, no vets could find anything wrong with neck or shoulder her after that, and she was good to go. She was still nervous about jumping, and was afraid to jump if I did a lead out, so we just went to the no startlines, all the time style of running, which is thrillingly exciting at best, terrifying and impossible at worst. We scratched from any upcoming trials and she didn't compete or train too often that year, but started competing again in September that year. She made it to the podium in Steeplechase at that Western Regional.

The rest of the year, got to run in just 4 trials, where she earned her ADCh, and get qualified for Cynosports. She won 3 out of 4 Grand Prix's she ran in so had a stack of byes, this would be our year for big events! The plan was to use them up traveling to exotic far away lands like Arizona, SoCal and Washington, trying to get some byes for Cynosports and practicing going to a big event and not messing up, and trying to win. We only made it to Arizona in April, and we did mess up, and we didn't win. So good thing I made the plan to practice!

In April 2018, right after Arizona, she had her mysterious stroke/seizure/mystery weird event. That left her with a draggy right hind foot. I was just happy she was alive after that, and her doing agility ever again would have been a bonus. We just walked slowly around the neighborhood for weeks while she dragged her foot, and I was hoping that wouldn't be her permanent new life. We scratched from upcoming trials, and in our year for big events, I her pulled off our team for the Camarillo Regional. But it started to drag less so she could walk longer and further, and eventually I started to train her a little, to see if just a little toe drag on the tip of her toe would affect her running. It seemed ok.

In June 2018, I started her back to running on contacts. She fell off a dog walk for the second time in her life, the first time being at Power Paws when she was young and I hadn't stabilized it, she never liked doing dog walks there in that spot after that. This time I didn't see, I just heard her come off and when I looked up, she was running next to me. I worried that her still slightly draggy toe talking late to her brain caused it. And later on that evening, when I brought her down to class to demo something, lame on her left front. Vet couldn't figure out what it was. I scratched her from upcoming trials, including pulling her off another team. I gave her time off. And then she was ok.

In August 2018, after just a light training before I taught, I pulled into my driveway after an evening teaching classes, and she climbed out of the car on 3 legs. Her right hind, the neurological foot was all wrong. Next 2 days, every time she got up, 3 legs. Then, magically gone after 2 days. I ran her in a couple classes at a local trial, after winning Saturday's Grand Prix, she was walking funny on that right hind again. I scratched her from the rest of the weekend. Took her to the vet on Monday, she was walking fine, vet couldn't find anything except for the neuro foot wasn't talking to her brain again. I told my team, we didn't have any replacements in mind, so I walked her carefully around the neighborhood on a leash that week. No funny steps, and her brain and foot were back on speaking terms. I let her have one off leash walk in the woods by the end of the week, no funny steps or 3 legs, so I ran her in the Regional. She ran great. Only things that happened were direct results of handling errors on my part.

Right before Steeplechase Finals, she started walking weirdo while walking near a flapping tent. Left hind bad! But not panicking, I suspected a burr and grabbed her and pulled it out, she had the panic attack for us and didn't want to go near the tent anymore, which was right by the ring. That's so Banksy. She got over it though and went in and ran her heart out, but later wouldn't get up on the podium because it was near a flapping tent. So I didn't make her. Banksy's mind just works like that, and I'm used to it.

So Cynosports? No way. She keeps me guessing too much to plan a big trip. Even if I had earned the Grand Prix bye (we only have a Steeplechase bye), too much stress to spend so much time and money worrying about keeping her in one piece. Even training her is nerve wracking since I don't know what happens to her when she's had her weird injuries. Her Steeplechase time was within a second of Kirk's, who is as fast as it gets and we're usually at least 2 seconds behind, so that would have been fun to try for the finals, but I think we'll both be happier staying home and going back to forest running.

So another year, no tries at being champions. But when I remember that 6 months ago, I didn't know if she would ever be able to take a jump again or run another dog walk, there's no way I can be disappointed. After all that, anything active she can do is a bonus, and based on her pattern of the last year, there will probably be more future things that pop up. Banksy definitely does everything on her own terms, and she's so amazing that however she does things is cool with me. Agility is definitely her number one, it beats the beach, forest running, and even her other favorite sport, finding the soccer goals to run around on soccer fields and then catch a low flying flippy. Preserving her to be able to do agility and run fast wherever she wants to until she's old and creaky is my big goal now, that's how she'll be a super champ.

03 September 2018

USDAA Western Regional, Finals.

First round of the Grand Prix, Third Place

The second round didn't go so good. Banksy broke her startline, we took off like rockets, she hit a bar on the double, I thought I kept it together but did make a last minute decision about handling the jump after her dog walk. My hat flew off while I was thinking this so my brain must have been exploding so instead of showing decel I showed EXPLODE and she did then it got back on track until I couldn't find the red jump just past the teeter and I tottered around out there looking for it while Banksy jumped something the wrong way. Trippy!

Nothing like the occurrence of a shit storm in front of an audience!

Steeplechase Finals

This went super! I planned a broken start, almost didn't get her leash tossed away, zoom zoom zoom off we went starting with a rear cross and an extra unplanned off the cuff rear off the frame! She was fast! Best of all we got to go on the podium with our besties Channan and Kirk, they always beat us so we are always happy just to have a time anywhere near them! Also Anita and Veuve, we also can't beat those two. Super fun finals, even with the shit storm of Grand Prix.

Banksy got scared of the flapping tent behind the podium so that was as close as she'd go. Nosirree, not on that box, even next to Kirk! Sometimes that happens to Banksy, she's cool.

OK, edit. I just looked at the results. In the 2 classes she won, Banksy had the fastest time of all the dogs, all the heights in the whole regional. One was Biathlon Standard, Kirk had a faster time, but she had a bar. We are always happy to have Kirk beat us. Also the fastest time of all the dogs, all the heights, in Team Standard. Banksy's steeplechase podium group also had the fastest time of all the dogs, all the heights. With Kirk and Veuve less than a second faster, and they are really, really fast! Also her first round of Grand Prix group the fastest times of all the dogs, all the heights.

Banksy is amazing. And right now, having a nap.

02 September 2018

USDAA Bay Team Western Regional, days 1 and 2.

Team Might Get Hairy. No team Q, due to all 3 of us very democratically E'ed in Team Jumpers. Banksy won Team Standard, came in 4th in Team Snooker, would have been 2nd in Team Gamblers if I had checked her scribe sheet (oops), and bonus E with a classic mistake of drifting too fast across the jump sending to a backside in Relay! But it was no big deal, had a super fun time teaming with Holly and Dianne and didn't need a team Q for any special reason.

Banksy is running amazing. From 2 weeks ago thinking she would have to be scratched to this! She won Biathalon Standard, came in 3rd in the first round of Steeplechase, 3rd in first round of Grand Prix, and overall has had awesome runs with some handler errors mucking her up here and there. An E took us out of Biathalon but the E'less part was awesome and fast. Lots of points in team gamblers and snookers, many startlines, just all in all awesome running from Banksy, I couldn't be more proud of her.

One more day tomorrow for the finals, can't wait! Thanks Banksy and thanks Team Might Get Hairy!

25 August 2018

This happened, then this happened.

This happened today.

This happened, then afterwards Banksy had a sore leg and couldn't play anymore.

I'm hoping her sore leg isn't serious and feels better soon. Very soon. Because she's on a team next week for the Western Regional, the kind of team you wear a wig for. And Grand Prix and Steeplechase and all that agility stuff. Get well soon Banksy!

20 August 2018

How the heck are you, Gustavo?

Gustavo is back to normal. I actually didn't think this would happen, I figured he'd have a new normal, which was perfectly fine with me. Having any bit of Gustavo back is still a miracle. But having him back to normal, unbelievable. Maybe a bit paranoid when he sees dogs appear across the park field, til her registers they're just dogs. But he's his happy self to meet new dogs, follow us around, and chase Banksy chasing her frisbee again.

It's impossible to capture the level of dork that Banksy becomes at the pond. She was not too scared to swim a teensy, teensy bit yesterday. Gustavo puttered and Otterpop stood perfectly still most of the time we were there. Otterpop does weird things now, so she just stood still and looked to the far shore. She did have to stay on a leash, because with zero hearing the last thing I want is her to jump in the pond after a ball and start swimming and maybe forget where I am and I can't call. Most of her things are on leashes now.

Oh, yeah, what else can Gustavo do? Walking in the woods too. On a leash. The littles, forever on leashes in there, anywhere a coyote might ever chance to be, and Banksy always close in. Gustavo and Otterpop were happy as clams to go back to the forest. I was surprised about Gustavo, almost didn't bring him, but decided to just throw it out there. He was all, super! I was a little scared, and we haven't been deep in yet, sticking close by the road. Banksy was paranoid, looking over her shoulder and sticking close, so she's with me on this one. Baby steps.

12 August 2018

Purple is the new black.

photo by Dianne Morey

My size 10.5 foot of reality stomped down pretty hard a few years back. Turns out I didn’t become a rich and famous It-Girl who rose to fame and fortune while never leaving the privacy of her secret, ocean view, mountaintop pony ranch. Being of a somewhat slackerish misanthropic disposition, it wasn’t like I tried very hard to make that happen, but it had seemed like it would have been a nifty career trajectory for me, so go figure. Instead I ended up with the kind of life where you have to remember to drag the trash cans out on Wednesday and pay the DMV on time and deal with the ants. Go to work. Chop up broccoli. Answer the emails. Realize you’ll never have a nice couch. Everything was very serious, even though my job was a capital “V” vocation, it was still mostly scurrying around with a scowl trying to beat the clock.

With one grandiose swoop of the birthday clock, I overnight became too old to be young enough to see bountiful amber waves and fruited plains rolling out endlessly in front of me, but way too young to just throw in the towel at this discovery. I was exactly in the middle, the place where a nagging little brainvoice starts causing you to comment on the old skool way you used to do what’s now the fancy new skool way to do all the things. I believe this is also known as Grandpa Voice. The same brainvoice does the math of how many years came before, compared to how many are left and mumbles quietly cutely scripted slogans along the lines of life is short, enjoy ever moment, then turns into anxiety dreams about evacuating livestock during a wildfire as you fall asleep on the couch before it’s even 9pm.

The art of having a genuine hobby definitely hadn’t occurred to me before. Hobby? Like the skinny old dudes and their pickleball, driving around with their pickleball license plates and flapping plastic balls bobbing on their antennas? Weekend cake decorators instagramming from their home kitchens the construction of towering rainbow cakes in the shape of bashful unicorns, with genuine gold leaf eyelashes? Golf?

Not a thing for me, the hobby. I was too busy having a life that seemed to keep slipping off it’s trajectory tracks. Work that had started gently as hobby, but quickly advanced many years prior to work, sucking all the good juice out of what first brought joy, then brought money. Not like I was sweat shopping on an assembly line or plodding away in some dank warehouse, but just trying to do all the things right while constantly reminding myself how lucky I was to be doing what I love, was so darn time consuming. And financially, definitely on the crummy side.

That first agility class with my lovely pet Ruby was an unlikely gateway into loosening the still fresh ties of adulting and the newish slinking, smoldering sprouts of panic caused by the quiet tick tocks of the doomsday clock. It started innocently enough, with an untrained dog. The obsession crept in all sneaky-like, like when you recognize a lead singer, cap pulled down low in incognito shades, skulking on to an adjacent barstool for a drink. An hour to sneak out of the day, drive to a grassy yard, sit in a chair, and give the dog a treat when it climbed on the thing. Changing the channel from our usual programming. It didn’t always go quite right, but even that upset of the drama, the dog didn’t go on the thing, the dog didn’t stay, the dog is running away, was an escape because of when it worked and there was the moment of rabbit in a hat magic. Hold a cookie and it’s like wand waving wizard school out there, you just turned that owl into a stackable washer dryer set, holy smokes!

Eventually, the dog reliably ran through the tunnel for a piece of cat food. Maybe caused by better reinforcement placement or just better cat food. It was a blissful and amazing satisfaction found nowhere else. Each time, the dog sent through the tunnel faster, with a growing expression of demonic possession on her face. There was a measurable, quantifiable amount of something happening, changing, improving. The dog was going somewhere I wasn’t, she had her own vast future ahead, so many things to learn. The apocalyptic future landscape was fended off for a moment by a dog running around chomping on a cookie in it’s mouth. I was on to something that just might suspend time.

I still hid out behind my ironic detachment. That hour turned into a day, then a weekend, of communing with others who were not like me. They were everything I’d never be. I’d never wear a floppy sun hat, especially not one that had extra long flaps on the back for necks shading and a sturdy chin strap. I’d never wear a baggy man size t-shirt with a cartoon dog screen print on the front. My shirts were carefully ironic, having been hunted and gathered via selective digging through choice thrift store bins. Probably, actually, a legitimate hobby pursuit of days gone by. Ironically though, the dogs of the others, regardless of their fashion choices, could do the weave poles every single time without messing up. I could pat myself on the back for having a really cute tote bag, but started out this quest as the worst in terms of dog agility skills.

Maybe my horror of matching accessories in sturdy purple water resistant nylon was some deep seated phobia that deep down, I was a matching purple accessories person. Purple phobic neurotica? Whatever it was, gradually, I had no time to go hang out with old friends at an art opening, or take students to a weekend horse show. I stopped calling my friends. They stopped calling me. I was on my way to the purple side, me and my dog and our new hobby. There was the weekly dog class. Then classes. Then there was the never, ever missing the classes. Then there was the practicing. And more practicing. And the renting the field for the practicing. And the lugging equipment to all kinds of fields for practicing. Then the fun matches. Then more of those. Then a trial. Then two days of a trail. Then another. Then another. And so on.

Nowadays, the cheerful diversions are super specific, collection turns off running contacts, or perfecting a send to the backside while sliding laterally, that stave off the nagging tick tock of what the heck have I been doing all this time and how much time do I have left to do it now? Back in the day, even not so cheerful diversions were all right. Dog agility used to make me cry on a regular basis and I still couldn’t get enough of it. Things are different now. I get it. Just go back and train it. So simple!

I have friends who think it’s perfectly normal when I text them at 5:30am because I saw my dog take a funny step when she walked across the kitchen. A wild Friday night is dog practice, and a great Sunday brunch replacement is dog practice. My husband didn’t sign up for a garage full of shade clothes and dog beds and blue and white striped pvc, but he’s taken it all in stride. And is mildy interested in this idea I have about us buying a motorhome one day. In the distant future. Except that it’s got to be the not so distant future if we're going to do it, life is short and so on and so forth, says the brain voice.

My dogs don't see that my hair’s a little grayer, and that my middle bits are little lumpier. Otterpop, who spent all those years in the USDAA Top Ten, earning big fluttery ribbons that have long vanished into dust gathering clutter that calls to me, “Downsize, Downsize”, she’s deaf as a rock and waddles across the floor with back legs that don’t bend at all anymore. They just sees me, and that it’s time to train, just like we did yesterday and like we’ll do again tomorrow.